Friday, May 21, 2010

Weeping Willow

It doesn't take much these days. A sad country song on the radio pushed me over the edge taking Pace TO school and then again FROM school today. It seems like tears are just waiting to brim over lately. Don't worry; it's a healthy sadness. It's just that moving from here:
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To here:
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Is a loooooong way:
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And I'm sad about it.

I cried when I went to my yearly OB/GYN appointment and the sweet nurse who has talked me through two pregnancies hugged me goodbye. I cried when I bought some heavy cream and noticed that, by the time it expired, I wouldn't live in our home anymore. I cried when Noah left these flowers for Pace on our back door-step.002
I cried as I walked home from book club in the darkness and knew it was the next-to-the-last time. I cried at the realization that the girls don't understand the magnitude of what's happening.008
Fact is, I'm just not the leaving kind. We've talked about my love for the familiar before. I don't even like to move my furniture around, much less leave my whole house. Jeremiah is about to burst at the seams. He's ready to move on...to move out. I just want to hem myself up and not go anywhere. I love our little life.

I guess if you refuse to move, you get run over. So, this weekend our goal is to pack up and move out the basement.
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Aghhhhh!

12 comments:

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J said...

Hang in there, Abby. I can't imagine how hard this is. I pray God will comfort and sustain you and give you the blessing of deeply enjoying these last few days.

Ekkehard said...

And you all will be back! And there are marathons in Seattle. And eautiful mountains and the ocean for photography! Oh the new challenges....

melissa richie said...

can't even think about it...

i love you, friend. this neighborhood will be lonesome without you guys.

Anonymous said...

moving is the hardest thing ever sometimes!...
here's to your new adventures and you ability to travel back often!

lishy loo said...

Abby, I understand your pain. I moved here to Birmingham from Michigan. I left family, friends, the place I grew up, my whole comfort zone. It was scary. I grew up on a farm in the middle of nowhere and I found myself in a city! One of the things that I found that helped me was put some fresh tilled dirt from the family garden in a jar. I labeled the jar and would occasionally smell it. Sounds a little odd and it sounds like it would be a sad thing to do, but it wasn't. It brought back good memories of home and the family and friends that still love me there. Another thing that helped was to not wash a blanket that I used to cover up and snuggle with one of the dogs. A little stinky, but again it helped remind me of the good memories that I had with the dogs. It'll all work out, even if you don't think it will.

Natalie McGough said...

Hey Abby,

I know this is a tough transition for you, but I promise that so many fun memories and adventures will happen this next year and then after a quick year, you'll be moving back to Alabama! You can do it!!!! Just pretend like you are going on a long vacation or on a long missions trip. You have so many incredible memories in your home now, but think of all of the memories to come! One thing that helped me when we moved to Vermont is scheduling company...lots of company, our house became like an Inn and I loved it! I'll be praying for you and if you need any advice call me: ).

Jenny said...

I have this little "philosophy" that is "if you are not sad to go, then you didn't enjoy your time when you were there." How blessed you are to have amazing memories and have a wonderful life that you are sad to leave. However, God does amazing things, and I can't WAIT to see all the wonderful things that are going to happen in your life going forward!

Denise said...

I know EXACTLY how you feel... but my move wasn't nearly as far and turns out we are headed back to where we came from just 4 months later. You can do it. God has a wonderful journey planned for your family. You'll be back in no time... but I know how you feel... cry it out, as much as you want, you are allowed. I always hate when people tell me everything will be alright... I know it will be but I still want to cry and be sad...so do it girl! praying for you.

andi said...

Will you still take Market Tote to WallyWorld??? Please promise me you will. :))))) Do they even have Walmart? What is your move date?
I loved catching up on your posts, especially about Baby Graham. Thank you for your honesty and transparency. I know you have touched hearts, many.

Gail said...

I understand. I am a root, too..My hubby...a Leaf..He LOVES to fly away...NOT me...I love, love...the same OLE', same OLE'...Hang in and just try your best to enjoy this ride. Doors will open and life will be new! Just don't be so hard on yourself for knowing what you love, and who loves you! That counts! :O)...Claim it and name it! It's not a bad thing! You will be fine! When we packed up and headed out of Dothan, towards OHIO...I thought my heart would break in two. I understand. :O)

JJ said...

Hi. You don't know me, but my friend Layne told me about your blog and that i should read it b/c you are an excellent "blogger":) and so I have been and I agree! You're little girls are precious and they look to be about the same distance in age as my girls are, we are just a year or so behind. anyway, i just read this post, about you moving, and i just wanted to tell you that i will be praying for you and your move. we moved a lot growing up, so i know how difficult it can be, but i will say...it has been so amazing to look back and see all the ways that God has provided through those moves, new friends, new church, new home....new everything and although it's different, it turns out to be wonderful. praying for you and your family. sincerely, jj