Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
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Thursday, September 17, 2009
As I watched Whitney and Cole, I think I saw Jeremiah and me after we had both of our girls. I was aware enough, then, to know that I felt like a "deer in headlights," but I could not step out of my fear/love enough to see what I was truly experiencing. And that was it, the poem. After you hold the new little life, that God has miraculously trusted you with, for the first time you are bombarded with all the emotions that you do feel and all the ones you think you're supposed to feel. In actuality, you don't really know this new little person at all. You don't know what they'll look like, or enjoy; if they'll be spunky or demure; if they'll make you laugh more often than cry; and (more immediately) if they'll let you sleep or keep you up all night...you just don't know. It's like the picture Shakespeare created of the boat. You're out there, floating along in an unstable little craft. You can plot out schedules and make plans, just like a sailor of old, plotting his course by the height of the stars, but you can't know the true worth of what you hold in your arms. You can sense that the love is there, and it's big, but the magnitude of it, the nebulous force, is frightening.It was amazing to be able to step back and see the beginning of all that love. To know that they were scared stiff and excited and feeling confident and useless all at the same time. It made me so happy. Little Lucy, the culmination of all those feelings, made me so happy. I love y'all.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Jeremiah is on a (what we thought was going to be easy but instead has been) hard rotation right now. That has left me with an over-abundance of time with the little chicken wings...who've been acting like two rotten creatures from the deep, to put it mildly. Pace is going through some type of "fear of abandonment" a lot later than I thought it was supposed to happen. In all seriousness, she will not tolerate being in a different room than me and has started waking up multiple times at night scared. Lovely.
Caroline (my sister) got engaged to Riley Blair!!!! He flew her to JH Ranch (in California) where they met, and got down on one knee. I love that guy, and there's something about adding a brother, in a family stocked full of estrogen, that is an exciting breath of fresh air. Let the planning begin!
etsy, cause I've added some new items, like this:
something for fall, like this:
and wouldn't you love to get a onesie all packaged up in a little bird's nest like this: :) The Camera:I spent some money and bought a good camera. It feels like Christmas as a kid, when you get that toy you've been dreaming of for so long. You keep looking at it lovingly and thinking, "You're mine. ALL mine!" Jeremiah and I had been talking about it forever, but he just kept saying, "I think you're right, but let's go look at them together and decide." I saw that the likelihood of him being off work during normal business hours AND willing to spend the time shopping--was slim to none. So I just went, on a random Wednesday morning, and bought the one I'd been drooling over. I made sure I could bring it back (if Jeremiah had an aneurysm), but I did it. It was sort of surreal.